As always, I am Ashamed to say nothing....

Seek apologies elsewhere.

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Do you ever feel like you are an asshole?

And like you try really hard not to be an asshole, keeping the lid on your assholery as much as possible because of all the external messages you get from those around you when you let your personality roam free, free as a bird that not-so-much you? You know when sometimes you accidentally forget to not be yourself, and the you say things, and then you are an asshole and then you just have to wait for the moment that inevitably comes when someone has to sit down and tell you what an asshole you are and please stop being you. Please stop being a smart ass. Please stop having an ego. Please be anything else but you, because you are annoying and possibly evil. So you push your pesonality down, smashing it like a giant fluffy sleeping bag into the tiny travel case it came out of but will never go back in, push, push, smoosh, smoosh, until you are just frustrated and tired and give up and cry and withdrawl into yourself and begin once more to pause for a second, push down your personality, run thoughts through a filter, speak slowly trying not to be an asshole, and repeat.

No?

Me either. (smoosh, smoosh, smoosh)

  1. judyschu said: Get out of my head.
  2. imabtastic said: Yes. Except replace ‘asshole’ with ‘bitch.’
  3. johninstl said: I can’t relate but I sympathize with you. You see, I enjoy being one of those chosen to be in the “everyone is an asshole except for me” category. Ho hum. It’s tough to be me.
  4. theungracefulone said: Maybe THEY’RE the assholes. DUH
  5. desert-nurse said: I’d like to think we’re all in places because of who we are. To be anything else is denying yourself the reason you’re there. aside from making people cry.
  6. naimhe said: every fucking day for the past 17 years. and I’m not even much of an asshole.
  7. markicksass said: Every day at work. :)
  8. kfedup said: I’ve had my head in the proverbial sand about my own assholishness for years and really saw it recently. We’re all assholes. It’s the human condition.
  9. tanadoeslife said: <3 you!
  10. lostweightgainedlove said: Smoosh.smoosh.smoosh
  11. totalinnerbitch said: I think you are awesome.